It has finally begun...
So I am into my third year of school and as usual nothing has changed. Even though I am part time, I still keep seeing the stupid people who walk the halls. Granted I shouldn't call freshman stupid (sense I know a few freshman whom are friends of mine and are far from stupid and are not part of this stereotype) but I still see in pretty much all the others the immature nature that is involved and it just makes me agitated. The way they look at people is still that of a child and it is quite agitating. I hope that in other schools this isn't the case but as far as I can tell, this is still the case. I have an unfortunate (yet fortunate?) situation of having two teachers with very thick accents. It is hard to understand them both but my current math teacher is my main focus. Not only is it hard to understand him but he does these weird metaphors. It's not bad or anything its just hard to relate to the metaphors. Personally I feel he has to give it straight and we can come up with our own metaphors.
Back on topic, I find the younger generation full of insignificant brats. Though it is rare to find the opposite, I see many young adults walk the halls with the typical high school "swag". The body language of cocky stuck up brats. It agitates me. This is supposed to be a step up from high school not a second attempt at high school. Even with my math teacher with the heavy accent, I heard a student in the back making snooty comments in the back. Really people? If you don't like it...
Leave.
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Thursday, August 16, 2012
My Attempt at Lyrics...
Like I need to write a song so I guess its a poem for now...
(this will not rhyme!)
There are these days where everything is right
You and I were just friends.
Things were calm and collective
Normal, right as rain.
You go through this hell where everything is bent
I can only imagine the pain that is in your veins.
All can't be helped
You seem so lost and hurt.
I want to comfort your heart and comfort your soul
I am far more than you thought
I want to ease your pain.
I want to make you better.
There is this feeling though that holds me back.
This desire to help you but it feels awkward.
I just want to embrace you but it doesn't feel right.
I don't know where to take this.
I don't want to send the wrong signals.
Its all I have.
I like you but you don't me.
Not in that way at least.
I don't know how to help you.
I don't know how to not bring on this awkward feeling that we have said never to bring up.
I am stuck in the middle.
Help me... Help you.
(this will not rhyme!)
There are these days where everything is right
You and I were just friends.
Things were calm and collective
Normal, right as rain.
You go through this hell where everything is bent
I can only imagine the pain that is in your veins.
All can't be helped
You seem so lost and hurt.
I want to comfort your heart and comfort your soul
I am far more than you thought
I want to ease your pain.
I want to make you better.
There is this feeling though that holds me back.
This desire to help you but it feels awkward.
I just want to embrace you but it doesn't feel right.
I don't know where to take this.
I don't want to send the wrong signals.
Its all I have.
I like you but you don't me.
Not in that way at least.
I don't know how to help you.
I don't know how to not bring on this awkward feeling that we have said never to bring up.
I am stuck in the middle.
Help me... Help you.
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
A Short Blurb...
I typed on Facebook..
This is the following post I made just moments ago and hope that all of you get the chance to read it. Thanks for reading my posts thus far and may I tell you all my experiences with Aspergers Syndrome:
I have so many mixed feelings on autsim and its community and parents. Though I have grown up with an autistic older sister I don't quite see the burden that others have. This could be due to the severity of the case or it could be me not quite seeing the relationship. I can tell you now that though I may have aspergers syndrome and do not have severe cases of autism, I find myself offended when people say that they wish there child didn't have the disorder. What I want to hear in all the world for those whom are autistic, is that they wish that society would love, respect and learn autistics. Instead we are given this nasty look as if society wishes nothing to do with them/us. I pray that research is done fully to the highest extent and that if a cure is in deed provided that it is given by choice and based upon severity. I know there are some who go through hell and back and truly do suffer from it. If they wish for a cure that is fine. But for those like us whom need no true help via pill, I only wish that those people can be accepted. I look at these words and only find one true answer involving society...
It will never happen unless we educate. Please for the love of all who are human and holy, do some research on the subject then judge me. If there is one thing that I am forever glad for in my friend/co-worker (you know who you are) it is this:
Thank you for doing at least some research on the subject and treating me like an adult for the first time in a while. I know others have treated me like adults and I know some have done research (that I am aware of). But you are the only one I know whom have done both. For that I thank you Charlse. I also would like to thank Patty (no facebook account so no links to either one) for listening to me. No matter the issue I have to face, you listened and praised me for the good I have done. For that I tip my hat to the both of you and give a respectful bow.
Thank you all for reading this if you have and may God bless you this week and many days to come.
This is the following post I made just moments ago and hope that all of you get the chance to read it. Thanks for reading my posts thus far and may I tell you all my experiences with Aspergers Syndrome:
I have so many mixed feelings on autsim and its community and parents. Though I have grown up with an autistic older sister I don't quite see the burden that others have. This could be due to the severity of the case or it could be me not quite seeing the relationship. I can tell you now that though I may have aspergers syndrome and do not have severe cases of autism, I find myself offended when people say that they wish there child didn't have the disorder. What I want to hear in all the world for those whom are autistic, is that they wish that society would love, respect and learn autistics. Instead we are given this nasty look as if society wishes nothing to do with them/us. I pray that research is done fully to the highest extent and that if a cure is in deed provided that it is given by choice and based upon severity. I know there are some who go through hell and back and truly do suffer from it. If they wish for a cure that is fine. But for those like us whom need no true help via pill, I only wish that those people can be accepted. I look at these words and only find one true answer involving society...
It will never happen unless we educate. Please for the love of all who are human and holy, do some research on the subject then judge me. If there is one thing that I am forever glad for in my friend/co-worker (you know who you are) it is this:
Thank you for doing at least some research on the subject and treating me like an adult for the first time in a while. I know others have treated me like adults and I know some have done research (that I am aware of). But you are the only one I know whom have done both. For that I thank you Charlse. I also would like to thank Patty (no facebook account so no links to either one) for listening to me. No matter the issue I have to face, you listened and praised me for the good I have done. For that I tip my hat to the both of you and give a respectful bow.
Thank you all for reading this if you have and may God bless you this week and many days to come.
Monday, August 6, 2012
I Talk to Myself (Part Two)
Cause I just discovered something....
I have been on some autism forums and found something quite relieving. I have said before about me talking to myself. Whether it is an autistic trait is unsure but I have found that many people with autism actually do this. It's a short but sweet message here but I am glad to find that others with autism do this. I wasn't if others had this 'think out loud' concept. It is quite therapeutic and helps alot. Just a short blurb. Not much of a part 2 but what was I supposed to call it? Part 1 1/2?
Read Part One
I have been on some autism forums and found something quite relieving. I have said before about me talking to myself. Whether it is an autistic trait is unsure but I have found that many people with autism actually do this. It's a short but sweet message here but I am glad to find that others with autism do this. I wasn't if others had this 'think out loud' concept. It is quite therapeutic and helps alot. Just a short blurb. Not much of a part 2 but what was I supposed to call it? Part 1 1/2?
Read Part One
Thursday, July 26, 2012
I Cried...
.. Out Loud.
I got the blessed oppurtunity to watch a video on a very special girl named Carly. She has severe Autism. I watched many videos on her and wish to read her book, Carly's Voice. Upon watching her video, I persistently started to cry and cry out loud with no control. My eyes were burning from the tears. Her story has changed me so much in the time that I had watching the videos. I will definitely be reading her book ASAP!
Though I do have to admit that before I was not in a very good mood. I had also just watched a video on a boy whom had Autism and was on this talk show. Just Youtube Search: 'Kathie Lee Gifford Makes Autistic Kid Cry on TV'. It angered me. Made me furious! But Carly.. Oh Carly.
She literally became my new super hero. She is my idol now. I have no words to describe my feelings right now. I can not describe them right now. Nothing can ever describe the feelings right now.
I have sense then taken a good look at myself and seen what is up with myself. I remember a person asked me what my stims were. I couldn't really think of anything at the time. Though I can now think of a couple:
1) Crinkling corners of pages in books
2) Talking to Ones Self
3) Hands Clasped When Thinking (Sherlock Holmes Syndrome as I put it)
4) Pacing
5) Used to Chew on Things
6) Does Rambling Count?
7) Oh yeah when I talk about something of great interest sometimes I speak in an accent. XD
Short list but you get the idea.
I have also gotten the chance to watch Jacob Barnett, a savant. Just google search the kid... yeah kid... he is in college at the at of 12! He has Aspergers.
So I will close this up for today. I am glad I did what I have done these past few hours. :)
Till next time,
Peace!
I got the blessed oppurtunity to watch a video on a very special girl named Carly. She has severe Autism. I watched many videos on her and wish to read her book, Carly's Voice. Upon watching her video, I persistently started to cry and cry out loud with no control. My eyes were burning from the tears. Her story has changed me so much in the time that I had watching the videos. I will definitely be reading her book ASAP!
Though I do have to admit that before I was not in a very good mood. I had also just watched a video on a boy whom had Autism and was on this talk show. Just Youtube Search: 'Kathie Lee Gifford Makes Autistic Kid Cry on TV'. It angered me. Made me furious! But Carly.. Oh Carly.
She literally became my new super hero. She is my idol now. I have no words to describe my feelings right now. I can not describe them right now. Nothing can ever describe the feelings right now.
I have sense then taken a good look at myself and seen what is up with myself. I remember a person asked me what my stims were. I couldn't really think of anything at the time. Though I can now think of a couple:
1) Crinkling corners of pages in books
2) Talking to Ones Self
3) Hands Clasped When Thinking (Sherlock Holmes Syndrome as I put it)
4) Pacing
5) Used to Chew on Things
6) Does Rambling Count?
7) Oh yeah when I talk about something of great interest sometimes I speak in an accent. XD
Short list but you get the idea.
I have also gotten the chance to watch Jacob Barnett, a savant. Just google search the kid... yeah kid... he is in college at the at of 12! He has Aspergers.
So I will close this up for today. I am glad I did what I have done these past few hours. :)
Till next time,
Peace!
Saturday, July 21, 2012
What Dreams May Come...
A movie review...
I have always dreamed of what can possibly be the ultimate after death paradise. For a very long time I kept thinking to myself if all of this is just a dream then what is true reality? I could only imagine with the after life had to give us. The logical place of science and math. The after world that could possibly be out there is beyond anything that could ever be comprehensible. This movie is very much what I needed. This movie is fantastic!
From a technical stand point, this movie is very well done for its age. Gorgeous colors in heaven and dark destroying colors in hell. Cinematics are gorgeous. It's like every shot was taken by a painter.
They love to play with the environment in order to help portray the message. The words are very poetic. The environments are given more than colors. The layout is artistically laid out well.There are times however that the green screen effects are not very well done. More so in places like hell. It's just not as smooth and the lighting feels off in those scenes. The mesh between the actor and the back round don't become one of the same.
Morally this movie brings upon heaven and hell with out pressing the whole case of religion. This is a very strong motivational picture. The words are portrayed so well. There are no dull conversations. It is very well written. It talks about love and never giving up not about God.
I was tear jerked by the ending. I highly recommend this movie for any one. The alternate ending is best to be an alternate ending. I am glad. They are both technically the same ending. Just played differently. Personally I like the original ending. The ending that is in the movie plays back on the begining while the old one is very bland. They end up on opposite ends of the planet and just isn't as touching as the original.
All in all great movie! I actually cried! But just in case you are curious.. here are some things that I actually didn't like about the movie.
1) The editing in hell is bad. Really Bad.
2) I understand the personal heaven and personal hell thing. But here is my problem. All of heaven and hell is contrived of the couples own personal heaven and hell. Why is heaven and hell only there view of it? it kind of feels like everyone is hell has to suffer through this womens hell. It makes no sense to make all of hell to be like her own hell. Just a thought.
3) So it takes a blink of an eye to get back from hell but you had to get on a boat to get to hell? Seems legit...
But yeah this is just a brief of my thoughts.. I probably should have done a video but that's ok..
till next time ..
Peace!
Edit: I would also like to add that I was not a big fan of Robin Williams being the main character in this movie. I don't think he had it quite down when he is portraying the character in hell.. not until the very end at least. But other than that he had it down rather well.
Also why did Christy (Williams) freeze up at the end before returning to heaven. I don't get why that happened and what exactly happened. He is talking then suddenly can't move then suddenly he wakes up in heaven again. What the fuck?
I have always dreamed of what can possibly be the ultimate after death paradise. For a very long time I kept thinking to myself if all of this is just a dream then what is true reality? I could only imagine with the after life had to give us. The logical place of science and math. The after world that could possibly be out there is beyond anything that could ever be comprehensible. This movie is very much what I needed. This movie is fantastic!
From a technical stand point, this movie is very well done for its age. Gorgeous colors in heaven and dark destroying colors in hell. Cinematics are gorgeous. It's like every shot was taken by a painter.
They love to play with the environment in order to help portray the message. The words are very poetic. The environments are given more than colors. The layout is artistically laid out well.There are times however that the green screen effects are not very well done. More so in places like hell. It's just not as smooth and the lighting feels off in those scenes. The mesh between the actor and the back round don't become one of the same.
Morally this movie brings upon heaven and hell with out pressing the whole case of religion. This is a very strong motivational picture. The words are portrayed so well. There are no dull conversations. It is very well written. It talks about love and never giving up not about God.
I was tear jerked by the ending. I highly recommend this movie for any one. The alternate ending is best to be an alternate ending. I am glad. They are both technically the same ending. Just played differently. Personally I like the original ending. The ending that is in the movie plays back on the begining while the old one is very bland. They end up on opposite ends of the planet and just isn't as touching as the original.
All in all great movie! I actually cried! But just in case you are curious.. here are some things that I actually didn't like about the movie.
1) The editing in hell is bad. Really Bad.
2) I understand the personal heaven and personal hell thing. But here is my problem. All of heaven and hell is contrived of the couples own personal heaven and hell. Why is heaven and hell only there view of it? it kind of feels like everyone is hell has to suffer through this womens hell. It makes no sense to make all of hell to be like her own hell. Just a thought.
3) So it takes a blink of an eye to get back from hell but you had to get on a boat to get to hell? Seems legit...
But yeah this is just a brief of my thoughts.. I probably should have done a video but that's ok..
till next time ..
Peace!
Edit: I would also like to add that I was not a big fan of Robin Williams being the main character in this movie. I don't think he had it quite down when he is portraying the character in hell.. not until the very end at least. But other than that he had it down rather well.
Also why did Christy (Williams) freeze up at the end before returning to heaven. I don't get why that happened and what exactly happened. He is talking then suddenly can't move then suddenly he wakes up in heaven again. What the fuck?
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Autism Abortions...
... This is NOT OK!
So lately I have been catching up on Autism and as I was looking at my facebook, thautcast.com recently blogged about another blogger whom has given a post regarding prenatal testing. Though I am glad for this up and coming technology, I am not all to excited to see that potentially autism can be a reason for the mother to abort and terminate the baby.
Link to the article here...
I have decided to give my two cents on the subject via podcast.
Also a small milestone today as I have hit the 100 view mark for this blog. Thank you to all whom have read my blogger :)
So lately I have been catching up on Autism and as I was looking at my facebook, thautcast.com recently blogged about another blogger whom has given a post regarding prenatal testing. Though I am glad for this up and coming technology, I am not all to excited to see that potentially autism can be a reason for the mother to abort and terminate the baby.
Link to the article here...
I have decided to give my two cents on the subject via podcast.
Also a small milestone today as I have hit the 100 view mark for this blog. Thank you to all whom have read my blogger :)
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