Christmas Cookies...

And A Really Bad Cough...

(Originally written on 12/22/2012)

I had promised my dads current girlfriend that I would bake cookies. Though I would have to do such fun affairs, I have as of late come down with a bad cough. I was unsure of the proper procedural actions in just simply saying no. I didn't know how to simply say it.

(Posted today)

The cough still continues. I feel like puking when I wake up. It doesn't hurt though. It's clear and doesn't burn. I think I just haven't vacuumed my room in a while. I will have to take note to do it soon. Anyways, I have come to realize the christmas spirit is lacking in my heart as of late. I don't want to become a Scrooge about it but it seems to lack when it comes to Christmas. I hate that too. I hate that it is Jesus's birthday and I feel all so grouchy and emotionless. I feel as though it is a bit difficult as to describe why. One of the theories is because I keep getting mixed responses when I receive and give gifts. Either I get an overly excited or and underly appreciated reaction. I have no idea as to why I keep getting this reaction.

I don't even know why I keep getting these reactions. I am unsure if I can't read what is happening or if that is truly the reaction. I am not sure how to describe it.

I also get the feeling that I receive childish gifts. Though that is up to debate. I see people get things like appliances and expensive electronics. What do I get? Candy and gloves and a bath wrap. Do not get me wrong. I am thankful and all of the gifts I got this year. I love receiving gifts from people. I am forever greatful. It's just that people perceive me as a child. I want to be treated like an adult. But I guess that wont happen for a while.

Any ways, I am not feeling well so I will head off. Not feeling well sure does stink on Christmas. I used to have that as a kid. Well anyways, Happy Holidays... Merry Christmas... Happy Yule.. No matter what you celebrate! Goodnight and may this year be very well this year.



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Hear What I Mean..

Not What I Say....

There is one thing I keep constantly seeing in terms of those whom are on the Autistic Spectrum and that is that people don't understand/notice what they mean and/or do. I am having this issue right now as I have no idea how to put words together and say what is needed to be said. There is very little understood (for some reason) about this concept of us not knowing how to get our brain and our mouth to communicate together and process what is needed. I keep finding myself saying something and people getting upset because I didn't say what I thought I said or vise versa.

Course this is under the assumption that the person on the spectrum can speak but even in typed messages words can still get construed and it can be quite frustrating.

To the parents:
I know you have a hard time understanding your child or whom ever is on the spectrum. Here is my piece of advice for you.

1) Think Outside the Box- If the child is acting a certain way that does not seem logical then it could be for a very overly obvious reason. I hate to use the reason shootings in Conneticut but I will for the sake of example. If your child is annoyed by the topic it may be that they just want something else to be shown on tv cause they don't want to be hurt anymore by the tragedy. They want everyone to move on. This concept could not be simply thought of and has to be thought out side the box to understand. They may not be able to display the concept in words and the only way they were able to display the information was to get away from it. Or sometimes by acting very irrational such as laughing (maybe thinking of something in there head etc to help escape the thought) or other happy moods even when the subject is brought up.


2) Ask Them- I know this seems obvious but do not feel afraid to ask why they have reacted in such a way that you may not understand. If they get agitated, tell them that they do so to you (if this fact applies). If you ask them ahead of time if you can ask why they act a certain way this will help. Some will feel agitated and angry by it but tell you want to better understand and are curious and wish to understand there methods. This should help lighten the mood. If it still doesn't make sense use past experiences to help gather ideas and theories. Tell them to use words they normally don't use to help describe there emotions and why its happening.

3) Metaphoric or Literal- This is a bit of a tricky one. It's the same issue as describing the Bible. Do you take the passages literally or metaphorically? This will take practice to learn and figure out how there language works when it comes to explaining things. It is the hardest and one of the most customizable things you will have to take part in with your child in some cases. Learn what they mean by certain meanings... such as it hurts (emotionally) and it hurts (physically). This seems obvious to adults and those off the spectrum but for those on the spectrum it is very difficult to decipher sometimes. Mind you this piece of advice goes on further and wider spectrums. You may have to go back to advice 1 to figure this one out. Think outside the box.


For those one the spectrum:

1) Please Be Patient- I know you are agitated with the parent/guardian. You may not make sense to them but keep in mind they don't make sense to you either. Try multiple ways to explain to them why you act or say certain things. Take your time and don't rush. I know that is hard, it is for me. Any time there is confusion take a deep breath and try again with different words and concepts.

2) Be Open- Don't bottle yourself up. Let them know why you act the way you do. If you hold it in and not explain it will be harder when trying to explain things in the long run. This also applies to in general when it comes to admitting and talking about things.

3) See Advice 3 for Parents



I hope this helps in terms of understanding one another. Please leave a comment if you have any questions and I will try to give my input.



Until Next Time,
Peace!





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Chickens...

And Misunderstanding...

In the 3rd grade, we had these little baby chicky's that came into our class room. I can't quite remember why we had them or anything but I remember them quite well. I remember they liked to hop out of the kids hands for some odd reason. Maybe they wanted to take flight despite biological boundaries?

Any ways, I wanted to prevent them from falling out of my hands so I held them a certain way. I would clasp them so lightly but let my pointer finger and my ring finger split apart so the head could fit through. Unfortunately one of the students thought I was choking it but when I tried to explain (if memory serves right) some one took it away from me. Thanks f*cker....

Also I remember as a kid we had a small garden at around the same grade and I remember planting a small seed and ... stomping on it. At the time, I remember watching others plant and they would pat it down. Well, I thought that you had to do that I just decided to use my foot with light force. I do not mean that sarcastically.

I get misunderstood all the time. I have no idea how to correct it. It happens all the time. It is, however, a two way street. I misunderstand them just as much as they do me.

I feel so alone because of it and what I believe in gets construed all the time. My words get twisted and people don't listen to me and jump the gun about me.

Any of you ever have those?








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Your Still Here..

But still so far away...


I am not sure why but as of recent my dad has had this very distant feeling. I can see it in his eyes and the way he talks. I have no idea what is going on. I hope to God it is not because of me. In a way, it is very weird for it to be 'my fault'. But I don't deny that it may have something to do with it. He is happy all the time when Mary is around but for some reason when he is just doing his own thing I walk in and he is so depressed. He hasn't said it upright but when his voice trails off and doesn't have the upbeat tone in his voice, I begin to worry. I have finals and this is on my mind along with other things.

I keep feeling like he is drifting. I can't tell if he is sad or just tired. Is he even happy? Was he ever happy with his life to begin with. He seems so sad as of late. I am unsure as to why but it just seems out of place. He doesn't seem himself.

(btw and update on the internet thing.. I have noticed that is not letting up on the situation. I went last night to the bathroom and I left my door open. So what's the first thing my dad does? Goes into my room to see if I have my tower hooked up to the internet, sense he saw it on and everything... Really dad really?)

Any way I must close off so I may go to bed and attempt at kicking the finals in the ass.. Until next time..


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Shattered Glass...

In the Middle of the Night...

So my semester has become a total failure. In so many ways, this semester not only academically but emotionally and mentally has put a strain on myself. Not only have I failed (pretty much) this semester, but I have now had two of my windows broken in my van. I couldn't come to any conclusion to what I possibly have done to deserve all of this. I had a IM chat with a friend of mine.. I spilled so much... no spelling corrections will be made.. just straight from the chat box.. the name is changed for protective purposes..

Mew-Z: hi there... :p

Unknown is now Online.

Unknown: hello

Mew-Z: how was your day?

Unknown: busy

Mew-Z: I feel ya.. I doubt my day is busier than yours but time is a crunchin..

Unknown is now Away.

Unknown is now Online.

Unknown: i was beeing sarcastic,i am having a star trek voyager marathon

Mew-Z: ah.. well either case.. at least its the weekend

Unknown: yes

Mew-Z: stil.. I don't feel safe at the house.. no idea what to do really..

Unknown is now Away.

Unknown is now Online.

Unknown: self fulling prophecy

Mew-Z: self fullfilling prophecy?

Unknown: stop playing dumb

Unknown: you know exaclty what im going to say

Mew-Z: O.o no I don't.. I thought of this though when you said that..

Mew-Z: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cr-SqRWImmI

Unknown: okay not donig that

Mew-Z: :P theme of my life

Unknown: you need to help yourself

Unknown: you not anyone else is in controlof your life

Unknown: change as you want to, not as anyones else says

Mew-Z: that undefined metamorphisis from the thing on a leash to the one leading the leashed...........

Unknown: stop the analysis on the topic

Unknown: start your life

Mew-Z: ........

Unknown: this is not some srt of therapy, and im not a docter

Mew-Z: Thats what I thought I was doing..

Mew-Z: of course not

Unknown: i cannot handle your every concern, but you know how

Mew-Z: I know you cant...

Unknown: everytime you face a decicions, you go to our friends for support

Unknown: you do not need that support

Unknown: you are a fully capable person

Unknown: you have the ability to have joy in your life

Unknown: you have the ability to make your way in life

Unknown: go ahead

Mew-Z: what?

Mew-Z: Am I supposed to say something..

Unknown: you wanted to

Unknown: now say it

Mew-Z: what can I possibly say at times that I have no words ... just black thoughts

Mew-Z: blank not black

Unknown: okay, one final thought for the night

Unknown: you are in a bad place

Unknown: with nowhere to run

Unknown: no hopes, no desires, and no direction

Unknown: are you gonna sit down and take it

Unknown: or are you gonna make ourself happy

Unknown: think too long about this, and you will have gained the direction that you need

Unknown: im sorry i cant help you anymore with your problems, cause you have already solved them yourself

Mew-Z: I know you cant  help me.. I keep going to people hoping for solutions.. hoping that a plan could emit from them instead of me

Unknown: there you go

Unknown: you are free

Mew-Z: I already knew this from the get go..

Unknown: so whats stopping you from being happy

Unknown: you dont have a computer for gaiming

Unknown: you car is being trashed

Unknown: and you are failing in your studies

Unknown: thats pisses you off? doenst it

Mew-Z: yes... of course.. well more or less just keeps pushing me down.

Unknown: god dammit

Unknown: so you are having a tought time at school

Unknown: study, and do well

Unknown: stop being pushed down, and show the people around you that you are not to be put down

Unknown: if i had done the same, i would not even be employed

Unknown: wake up, and do something,

Unknown: you dont need someone for support, especially when you have sole ability to change it

Unknown: you need proff

Unknown: here it is

Unknown: http://images.search.yahoo.com/images/view;_ylt=A0PDoV5G7cNQ8HYAtXCJzbkF;_ylu=X3oDMTBlMTQ4cGxyBHNlYwNzcgRzbGsDaW1n?back=http%3A%2F%2Fimages.search.yahoo.com%2Fsearch%2Fimages%3F_adv_prop%3Dimage%26va%3Dbasket%2Bfull%2Bof%2Bkittens%26fr%3Dyfp-t-701%26tab%3Dorganic%26ri%3D33&w=420&h=280&imgurl=www.mythreecats.com%2Fimages%2Fkittens_in_a_basket.jpg&rurl=http%3A%2F%2Fbogeysblogsphere.wordpress.com%2F2009%2F10%2F&size=28.3+KB&name=cat+egory+group+cats+grand+prize+%3Cb%3Ekittens+%3C%2Fb%3Ein+a+%3Cb%3Ebasket+%3C%2Fb%3Esubmitted+by+...&p=basket+full+of+kittens&oid=b58454991d5a7e779bf24f3468cdc75f&fr2=&fr=yfp-t-701&tt=cat%2Begory%2Bgroup%2Bcats%2Bgrand%2Bprize%2B%253Cb%253Ekittens%2B%253C%252Fb%253Ein%2Ba%2B%253Cb%253Ebasket%2B%253C%252Fb%253Esubmitted%2Bby%2B...&b=0&ni=264&no=33&ts=&tab=organic&sigr=11en84hm2&sigb=13lnth9qe&sigi=11i4jl13a&.crumb=rMlnG7F6kvj

Unknown: how does that make yuo feel?

Mew-Z: ....... sadly.... just pleasing to the eyes..

Mew-Z: I have felt like I am shut off at the time..

Unknown: then shuit down

Unknown: take it

Unknown: be the under achiever

Mew-Z: a reverse psychology

Mew-Z: its a bitch

Unknown: stop analysing the situation

Unknown: are you gonna take the shit from a friend

Unknown: or are you gonna do something about it

Mew-Z: I am not sure why but I just want to slap you.....................

Mew-Z: but that could be out of my own frustration and knowing that I was wrong

Unknown: the slap me

Mew-Z: I can't your in DC

Unknown: say it

Unknown: stop toying with me

Mew-Z: say ........ what?

Unknown: speak your mid

Unknown: you gonna slap me with using words, better have something to say

Unknown: you are nothing, but what you make of yourself

Unknown: what are you gonna do about it

Unknown: huh

Unknown: say it dammit

Mew-Z: You don't understand my side of the story.  THough I know your words are much to me and wise to my ears, I can't help but sometimes feel like you go blank to me. I am in the process of trying to shift and not find myself but create myself. I must admit it is somewhat childish to me when I look at myself and see that all I am is alone..

Unknown: good

Mew-Z: I hope you understand that from this chair .. ( though I could tell it to your face)

Unknown: what the fuck are you gonna do to change this

Mew-Z: you come off as blank yourself.

Mew-Z: Only talking about things from the source of tezt

Unknown: cause i am blank

Mew-Z: text

Mew-Z: instead of using your own damn voice to speak what comes to your mind

Unknown: you want something from me, you want something from life

Unknown: then fucking take ot

Mew-Z: Because you yourself hate talking about this.. you despise it ..

Unknown: dont just sit down and take the hand you have been delt

Unknown: i had that shit m y entire life

Mew-Z: So have I

Unknown: i am not taking this myself and neither shall you

Mew-Z: Being the rope in tug of war.

Mew-Z: But all my life I have felt that there is nothing for myself becuase I am just here.. nothing to look forward to and nothing to shoot for becuase I have always been shut down... always been told things that memory fails to remember but emotions do.

Unknown: thats the point

Unknown: your not a man

Unknown: but you need to grow a set of balls

Unknown: so suck it up, and do what you need to

Mew-Z: I wish people would just be good but for some fucked up reason I keep seeing people be nothing but pieces of filth.. I see it in everyone family or not

Unknown: i like balls

Unknown: and you need some

Unknown: make you laugh, good

Unknown: cause you can do what ever the fuck you want, and you certainly dont need the guideance of someone like me, when you can handle these problems with your own descretion

Unknown: going outside

Mew-Z: Unknown, as I sit here blaring music in hopes of drowning out the sounds of silence, I know that I can't get my pieces of information together. I have always needed told everything. That has been the treatment all my life. I was never 'tought' how to think for myself and when I do it was wrong!!! I have nothing on me as a person but the two bare hands that I was born with and I am not going to sit here and take your shit! Why must the lessons that I have to learn always end in anger and in tears..

Unknown: good

Unknown: on the part of responding

Unknown: but you need to take riskes and stand up for yourself

Unknown: like you just did

Unknown: tears or not, you cannot just take it

Mew-Z: Why must I vent to people who wont listen.. ( not to say oyou haven't) when there are others whom will and yet they are not avalilbe... you answer me this. In the who scheme of life and all that there is.... why oh why must there be somehting that is inside of us that Breaks us down so far the rabit whole and to never see the grand light of day!!! tell ME!

Mew-Z: Tell me why I have this going on in my life that I have to turn into a hard ass and become some one I feel I am not

Mew-Z: ! WHY!

Unknown: because its not goal, but the jorney that defines us

Unknown: thats why i try so hard, thats why i risk my like to pursue mathematical comuotations in the goverments

Unknown: thats why everyone of our friends look up tome

Mew-Z: so you can get better pau?

Mew-Z: pay?

Unknown: and that why you are gonna do what make you happy

Mew-Z: pay?

Unknown: and that why you are gonna do what make you happy

Mew-Z: But as far as that I can not. Sure I could step out and get out there. Money is a burden for alot

Unknown: brb 20 days

Mew-Z: 20 days?

Unknown is now Away.

Mew-Z: Allow me some more of an insight. I am not sure f this will even make sense but alas I must try my hardest to get you to undertand

Mew-Z: Maybe not.

Mew-Z: but this is something that I can't bare to ever think. THat I would ever do something like hit a friend.. on purpose. I keep seeing it replayed over and over again.

Unknown is now Online.

Mew-Z: I had to pace to get me to calm down because nothing more than that is ever going on at one

Mew-Z: once

Mew-Z: Do you think that we all have instinct

Unknown: well if thinking about what other poeple are beleive you are capable of then...

Mew-Z: that just naturally we can just take everyday by day knowing what we ahve to do

Unknown: break some noses

Mew-Z: That everyone knows how to take the information downloaded into our brains and able to translate that into what we know is true and ok.

Mew-Z: I would surely love to know how someone can just simple walk the ways of life and just simply figure all this out

Mew-Z: how they can just simply come up with an answer in thin air

Mew-Z: like its some sort of fucking magic trick.

Unknown: well, if you know enought to analize it then you know how to deal with it

Mew-Z: I tell you right now that I have no such ability

Mew-Z: I have no idea how you all just snap your fingers and no how to solve the next problem ahead.

Mew-Z: or maybe just simply ignore it.

Mew-Z: Nothing to me ever makes sense.

Mew-Z: I do not have this instinct that I have spoken of

Mew-Z: Everyone and I myself expects me to be something. thought the answers are different.

Mew-Z: when I look deep inside of myself it is a blank piece of apaper...

Unknown: good write what you want

Mew-Z: when I try to draw on it... there is nothing there.. the ink simply dissappears.

Mew-Z: I can't get it all to stick..

Mew-Z: it will never stick

Unknown: stop being negative

Unknown: it will kill you

Unknown: and destory everone you love

Mew-Z: There are hardly any that care.. I calll and rarely anyone has ever answered.

Mew-Z: and those who sometimes do.. have a certain bias that coulds there heads.

Mew-Z: clouds

Mew-Z: there

Mew-Z: heads

Mew-Z: No one in any given situation has given a "true" answer. There is no one out there whom has ever given the perfect solution. and even now I think how in the hell am I even able to conjur up words to put together the ideas that are swirling in my head as I go.... and as I do

Mew-Z: I wonder if you are even listening.. or if you just fill in the blank.. but again

Mew-Z: that could be my own clouded jdgement..

Mew-Z: because not only can the ink not stick.. but the eyes are some what broken

Mew-Z: I can not see properly the world that I want to see ..

Mew-Z: becuase I am so broken ... that I have yet to find myself.. I thought I would have figured it out by tnow.

Mew-Z: that everything would be omeing to gehter for what I want to do with myself.

Mew-Z: I keep comoing up blank..

Mew-Z: is there really anything out there that is my want for the rest of my life..... do you know what my heart truly desires...????

Mew-Z: What my heart has begged for all this time... as I sit here closing my eyes and praying for my heart to talk and tell me what I need to know. I sit here typing mywhat my head has to say and you know hwa tit says..

Unknown is now Away.

Mew-Z: at all?

Mew-Z: Do you know what my heart craves? True Love, Truth, Knowledge, Adversity, Travel and see what green and blue Earth God has given us, and most of all self reliaance... know that what I do is not a waste of precious time.. that everything I do is part of a master plan.

Mew-Z: Do you truly hear me?

Unknown is now Online.

Mew-Z: or are you just sitting there waiting for me to stop so you can interupt.. and here me cry one more time.

Unknown: i hear you, but i do not know what anyones heart desires

Mew-Z: of course you don't

Mew-Z: you only know what of your own

Mew-Z: that is a fault in all of us

Mew-Z: we only know what we as a self truly wants..

Mew-Z: not everyone else

Mew-Z: we have a beautiful but ugly thing called society..

Unknown: thats a drive in life that everyone keeps to themselves, and is what makes everything possible

Mew-Z: we can all obey this alignment called society and yet we can not hear the cries of everyone elses pains.. we can not help those whom wish to be given that rope to climb the moutain of life..

Mew-Z: I don't know what this all means becuase I keep rerouting back to this one point and I know somewhat it is not true.

Mew-Z: that I have no such ability to do I what I crave so much for.....

Mew-Z: because my head and my heart does are not compatible

Mew-Z: they never were for anyone..

Mew-Z: So I have to sit here and think on the surface and pray that it will all stick and become wht I need it to. becuase I have no other way. Its like a piece of the animalistic instinct is not there or maybe its broken or maybe its or just simply turned off..

Mew-Z: broken, missing, turned off..... thats all there is..

Mew-Z: I don't have the tools to fix it. I do not wish a doctor to tell me how to do it.. they want money just like I need it.. to move out and on. Friends do tend to stay away from it

Mew-Z: they can handle it for so long...

Unknown is now Away.

Mew-Z: then they must part for they are sick and tired of peopple.. which begs the question if that has become my circomstance.. that people are so sick of hearing me be so lost. I don't have the tools they are foreign. I am slow to learn and slow to certain ideas.. patience is a virtue.. and many lack it so.

Mew-Z: for that I will promise you that for what ever virus or reason my head has given me this foreign idea...... I oh you... a slap to the face.............

Mew-Z: I am unsure why.. maybe you have indeed ticked me off for some unknown reason and idea..

Mew-Z: I have merely fallen into my own trap of my own pain and dismay but yet there are times it teases me and tells me that I owe you that...

Mew-Z: I owe you a kiss with my fist or palm. but my heart craves ever so ....... no..........

Mew-Z: Two intertwining ideas alternating in my arms wanting to give you a hit of the century.. but yet my inner child that knows nothing but innocence simply grabs me and says no to just take it.. cause there is nothing more..

Mew-Z: nothing more painful than to physically abuse someone whom is trying to help you and feed you the ideas that are needed to fight in this unfair war called life.

Unknown is now Online.

Mew-Z: I dont understand this battle that I have to face. call me spoiled call me weak .. but I can not hear my self anymore but the cries i wept at night to sleep

Unknown: okay thats too much for me too read

Mew-Z: I feared you would say that............

Unknown: im making dinner

Mew-Z: that I have gone on this tangent. and yet its too much

Unknown: some other time, too much infor right now

Mew-Z: so i spilled for no reason....

Mew-Z: you weren't really listeing and my tears were for nothing

Mew-Z: because as usual I was screaming and no once can hear a thing

Unknown: did ypu ever consider that you were screaming too much

Mew-Z: no...

Mew-Z: because my screams.. are normally in my own head

Mew-Z: that leak out into everyday life..

Mew-Z: I'm sorry

Mew-Z: For all of this..

Unknown is now Away.

Mew-Z: plus if I am not mistaken .. once you close this off... it all goes away right?

Mew-Z: there.. sent it to you facebook... just incase you don't want to read it

Mew-Z: sorry skype.. you never had a facebook.. bleh

Take it as you will,

An attempt at poetry...

Ah we meet again...


So I just posted another piece on Figment and I am very satisfied with this one even though it does feel a bit incomplete. So here is A Storm in Healing..

      Oh, thunderous clouds from hell you rise, a symbol... a sign... of the greatest demise.

You do more than scare the weak. You fill my soul with a roaring shriek.

You do more than light the skies. You shake the ground and hear the cries.

Warning of danger you cast and emit. There’s something here I must admit.

For fear is what they hear and you see I question why

Must they be timid and shy, while I stand here and embrace this sky.

For those growls and flashes most run and hide

I run to the fields to see the great outside.

I feel your power, that great embrace.

I hold and respect that great true race.

Some have died from your titanic breath.

I spread my arms and fear no death.

And after this far long chase

I feel your tears upon my face.

For you are sad oh great demise

Because I am the only one of your only allies. 

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Why Must Christmas...

Make me so sad...

I have only recently noticed the sadness that over comes me at this holiday time. I used to be so excited about the holidays to come but I keep finding myself coming back to tears. I am so stressed. I was never that  good at gift giving. I just winged it. I am unsure what triggers it so much. I listen to christmas music and I get this sense of bitter sweet. I don't know what to do at this point in regards what has happened thus far. The stress of me failing school surely does not help.

I guess I am sick of commercialism. I am so sick of people making this all about gifts. Call me selfish, but black friday should be spent on yourself. I don't understand spending so much money on other people. This is not me being mean. This is me using logic. I just find more logic in buying products for people through out the year rather than one night. Black Friday is like a like getting raped by a thief in a dark alley. I try to avoid it. Though I do admit that I spent 40 dollars in movies for myself. But that is not my point.

My point of all this is that I miss christmas for its core values. The love and family. I keep seeing people getting themselves hurt from and being stupid all over material things. I hate christmas for this.

It is mostly sad on a personal level due to the parents divorce The pain I endured from just normal parenting stress. Plus the recent events causes me to become depressed this holiday season. Not much I can do on that though. Still working on it.


I hope you all have a good holiday this year. :) No matter what you celebrate!






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